STORY #1:
Seth: "Mom, I made you this juice (colored water concoction)! Can you guess what it's called?"
Me: "No, what's it called?"
Seth: "Cancer."
How could I resist a nice, cool glass of cancer?
STORY #2
Catherine, showing me her wet, clean hands: "Mommy, I did it!"
Me: "Oh, did you wash your hands? Good job!"
Seth, from the bathroom: "Yes, but she did it in the toilet."
STORY #3
Seth, holding an adorable fluffy lamb Beanie Baby: "Mommy, this is my new baby. Do you know his name?"
Me: "Nope. What's his name?"
Seth: "Crusty."
Me: "Crusty?"
Seth: "Yep, because he's been dead for a long time."
(addendum: I have also heard him referring to the lamb as "Crispy." Not sure which I like better).
STORY #4
Seth, after dinner last night: "Mommy, thank you for the poison!"
Monday, March 25, 2013
Four Stories
Sunday, March 24, 2013
The Next One
The first time was a surprise. Just a slightly late, slightly abnormal period. But I wondered, so I went in to the doctor. "Most likely a very early miscarriage." But I was okay. It's hard to mourn something you didn't know you had until it was gone.
Also, antibiotics and birth control don't mix. For real.
The second time was harder. The night Catherine was born I was laying on the hospital bed next to her when I got a very clear impression: "The next one is coming sooner." Obviously Heavenly Father knows me VERY well--he gave me plenty of advance warning (this is how it has to be with me--otherwise my kids would probably end up five years apart. Let's just say I get a little terrified).
And so, sooner than I would have chosen on my own, we were ready to try for baby #3. Everything seemed to be going so well--I was pregnant quickly and the baby was due the end of May. We've been hoping for a May baby from the beginning. I felt like my impression was being confirmed--everything would go well because we were being obedient to my prompting.
But I started bleeding at five weeks. And there went our May baby. But even though I was sad, I felt relieved in a way. You hear the statistics all the time--how 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage. Other than my little oops above, I had never miscarried. I felt like this was it--I had paid the piper and now everything would be well.
It took longer than I hoped before I was pregnant again. But now it was December and everything seemed to be going well. We would tell our families at Christmas that baby #3 was on the way!
And then, once again, at five weeks I started bleeding. This time I didn't do so well. It seemed so unfair--weren't we doing what we were supposed to? So why wasn't it working out? Why couldn't we keep these babies?
I found myself pulling away from people, which is not easy to do during the holidays. I spent our ward Christmas party sitting in a hallway trying to avoid talking to people. But how grateful I was for two good friends who noticed that things weren't right and stopped to sit and talk with me. I will always remember their compassion that night.
I also need to apologize to Aaron & Ashley, who came out early to spend time with us before Christmas. It's hard to be a good hostess (or wife, or mother, really) when you're mourning and angry. But they were a huge blessing--they were they ones who played with Seth & Catherine and made them laugh when I wasn't feeling up for it.
As the days passed (and the hormones calmed down), I started to feel better. Christmas was lovely and peaceful--just what I needed. But I was still confused. That was our last chance for a baby to come "sooner." Seth and Catherine are 31 months apart. Even if we got pregnant right away (which I doubted) and even if I didn't miscarry again (which I also doubted), baby #3 and Catherine would be 31 months apart.
Which is exactly what happened. Come January I was pregnant again, but this time I couldn't be hopeful. But then I made it past 5 weeks. Then 6. And everything was fine (meaning I was nauseous and exhausted). But I still couldn't bring myself to take a pregnancy test. Somehow I felt like I would jinx everything.
But I told my family at 7 weeks. We were all together for Grandpa's funeral and it felt right to share some good news during our mourning. Plus this baby would be due September 20th--Grandpa Bud's birthday.
And everything was still well at 8 weeks. At 9 weeks I finally took the test, but only to appease Bethany, who was so perplexed as to WHY I wouldn't just take the stupid test. I tried to explain that it's pretty obvious that I 'm pregnant (sick, tired, bloated, eating every 30 minutes...), so why bother, but she wasn't having it. And--surprise!--I was pregnant. And for the first time, I felt safe.
I waited until 14 weeks to go to the doctor, partially because I hate going to all the appointments and wanted to postpone as long as possible, but also because I was still afraid. Afraid that I would go in and there would be no heartbeat--no baby.
My appointment was Friday. I had a slight moment of fear when the doctor announced that I was only measuring at 10-12 weeks instead of 14. But by some miracle we were able to go in for an ultrasound that afternoon. And here's what we saw:
A beautiful, perfect little baby with a perfect, strong heartbeat. Even at 14 weeks (or actually, 14 weeks 6 days according to the ultrasound measurements) it already looked just like a baby. Tiny little fingers and toes, a tiny little mouth. And everything, EVERYTHING, was perfect.
And so we're officially announcing the impending arrival of baby #3, who should make an appearance sometime between Sept. 14th and 20th.
And the nurse and I both caught a sneak peek that made us pretty sure that we have another little boy on our hands. But we'll have to wait to confirm that detail for another month or so!
Even though I don't understand everything, I feel at peace. Maybe I got that prompting because we needed to get through all those miscarriages first? Or maybe "the next one" meant one of the miscarriages? I don't know. But I am practically giddy to finally have this little one on the way!
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Catherine At Two
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Happy Birthday, Princess!
Love Day
Saying Goodbye
Monday, February 25, 2013
One Time...
A Little Bit of Seth
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Kids are Awesome
*Seth was writing on my calendar this afternoon. I looked up and saw what I thought were a bunch of random letters. I asked him what it said, and he responded, "Heh, heh, heh!" Sure enough, the calendar was filled with H's and E's. Then he informed me that "that's how I'm going to laugh now." Heh, heh, heh...
*He's also taken to making up games for us and Catherine to play. Right now they almost always involve keeping away from the lava, but some get very complex with lots of rules and regulations. During Christmas Jon's older sister commented that Seth is just like Jon was as a kid--always making up games for everyone to play.
*Catherine, on the other hand, seems to have a different side of her dad's personality--namely the side that enjoys pestering siblings. Seth is at the age right now where he bursts into tears if he doesn't win. Doesn't matter if it's a race down the stairs or a game of Cootie--if he loses, there is much drama. Which means all Catherine has to do is say, "I win!" in order to start him into a panic. "No, I win!" "I win!" "NO! I WIN!" They can be in the middle of eating lunch or watching a show (no competition at all) and she'll just blurt it out and watch carefully until he freaks out. She knows she can always get a reaction with that phrase. I am in big trouble with this one.
*Other favorite Catherine thing right now? She pronounces "blanket" as "bacon." Every morning she comes wakes up with her two blankets snuggled to her face and announces, "Two bacons!"
*We had her (awesome) nursery leader and family over for dinner on Sunday. He told us that if Catherine's upset in Nursery, all he has to do is start wiggling his hand crazily in front of her face. She immediately stops and starts giggling. Not sure what to make of that one...






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